Post by adyna on Sept 13, 2007 13:34:46 GMT -5
WOW. . i looked all over the internet and there isn't any free site, and I repeat FREE, for couseling. Sorry for my English , not native.
Right now I am really freaked out. Two days ago, after consuming alcohol, I really lost my mind. Till then, drink, head on the table, but that night.. I lost it completely. Got raped and after the police came took me and my friends in and .. I'll never forget their faces. I was yelling at the cops, trething them . I never would do such a thing. And I was saying that my name is Alina and my mother is dead and my father works in the government and I stared at the door , believing that 2 agents will come and clear things up, I also said I suffer from a disease I don't even know anything about, Im scared right now.
I am 18 and I do present BPD symptoms. Im very impulsive, do tend to use alcohol and drugs to escape (yeah right. ) Im also very moody, being able to go from one to another pole. Im usually lonesome. Don't have many friends, and don't last to long. Intentionally or not, I make them leave me. In all my lifetime I;ve only had 3 one'night stands (always drunk). Never something real. Im scared of comitment and .. maybe it's because of my parents marriage but I avoid the couple thing. I simply depend on myself. I have personality crisis. Sometimes I think Im the awesomest persone in the world, but most of the time. I say " I screwed up, " and leave people before they leave me. I don't get into anger, I simply pack my bags and go. ... anyway, if someone there reads this and would know/like to help, pls adyna_soho@yahoo.com ..
Right now I am really freaked out. Two days ago, after consuming alcohol, I really lost my mind. Till then, drink, head on the table, but that night.. I lost it completely. Got raped and after the police came took me and my friends in and .. I'll never forget their faces. I was yelling at the cops, trething them . I never would do such a thing. And I was saying that my name is Alina and my mother is dead and my father works in the government and I stared at the door , believing that 2 agents will come and clear things up, I also said I suffer from a disease I don't even know anything about, Im scared right now.
I am 18 and I do present BPD symptoms. Im very impulsive, do tend to use alcohol and drugs to escape (yeah right. ) Im also very moody, being able to go from one to another pole. Im usually lonesome. Don't have many friends, and don't last to long. Intentionally or not, I make them leave me. In all my lifetime I;ve only had 3 one'night stands (always drunk). Never something real. Im scared of comitment and .. maybe it's because of my parents marriage but I avoid the couple thing. I simply depend on myself. I have personality crisis. Sometimes I think Im the awesomest persone in the world, but most of the time. I say " I screwed up, " and leave people before they leave me. I don't get into anger, I simply pack my bags and go. ... anyway, if someone there reads this and would know/like to help, pls adyna_soho@yahoo.com ..
