2am and can't sleep Help

[Mel]

Well I am not doing so good right now and I am beginning to wonder if living on my own isn't a mistake. I missed my med review for the second time and woke up at midnight saying crap I missed my med review. They warned me last month when I rescheduled the appointment that I couldn't miss this one. I am going to go there first thing this morning and talk to them and try to explain to them and see if they will let me reschedule.

I have this real bad feeling of just wanting to throw in the towel and well end this all. I'm fighting it though. Kinda... I am really worried that they are going to be so mad at me tomorrow that I will lose my place.

I just got so overwhelmed with everything that I ttoally over looked the appointment and I know how important it is too. I can't believe I was so stupid to do this. I am such a idiot I even told my counselor the day before that I had a med review thursday morning and everything. What kind of stupid numbskull forgets such a important apppointment after saying over and over again that I have the appointment. Well I guess that would be me.

My emotions are overwhelming I feel like I am losing control of myself.

sorry for bothering you all and thanks for listening Mel

[Rhonda]

Melissa:

you are NOT any of those things you just listed
you were overwhelmed with laundry carrying it by hand... getting it done....and carrying it back home... a long walk with bags of laundry especially
not like you can drive anywhere....and ummm well maybe a little side tracked about getting a kitty....just explain with the move you had alot to catch up on to get settled in
surely they can understand that. If they are angry too bad and next one make a huge bristol board sign and get to it on time
see if they will give you a reminder call the night before because you suffer from "senior moments, sometimers (we all forget sometimes) and quit beating yourself up over this
Hope and pray all goes well for you today
Hugs
Rhonda

[aka]

Don't be so hard on yourself sweetie, you have had so much going on lately, that is only natural that something could/would be overlooked. It certainly doesn't mean that you are stupid, it just means you are tired.

Moving in by yourself has been a big strain on you and has taken a lot out of you, even if you don't realise it. Small bits of stress can add up.

You are not alone in this forgetting business hun, I write myself reminder notes then forget to read them.

Sending you big hugs and positive vibes.

[Mel]

Well last night I was really over tired and very worried abnout calling MH today about my missed appointment. But it all worked out like ya'll said it would. The lady was really nice this time and I explained that things just started piling up and I overlooked the appointm,ent and that I was sorry. She said it was ok and rescheduled the appointment. so all is good.

thanks ya'll for youe support.

ALways MElissa

[aka]

It was our pleasure Mel, that is what friends are for.

Hugs.