Post by Mel on Dec 22, 2005 21:04:38 GMT -5
Hi My name is Melissa, my friends call me Mel. I live in Johnstown NY and I am 29 years old. I have been diagnose with major depression, bulimia, and borderline personality disorder. I have lived with my mental illness since I was 12 years old. Both of my parents were abusive phyiscal, mentally and sexually. My father was convicted when I was 14 years old 7 years after the abuse started. My mother was never convicted nor was she ever confronted by anyone. My Aunt who took care of me a lot covered for my mom whenever anything was questioned. I have been in the hospital many times for my eating disorder and also for depression. I'm also a cutter I have cut since 11 years old. My mother committed suicide this past November in a state Hospital she was very mentally ill.
I am currentl;y living in a apartment program but will soon be living on my own in a matter of 4-7 months. I have been doing really well as far as my recovery. I have come to realize that I need to pull myself together and take control of my life again.
I cannot say that I do not have any struggles anymore because I struggle a lot with urges to cut myself when I am in a stressful situation. I still obess over my weigh and ask myself if I am over wiegh . I still think about everything that I eat. I am currently eating one to two meals a day. Which is a plus for me because it has taking me a long time to get to that point.
Okay I can't think of anythign else to say. My word to anyone struggling with any kind of mental illness is to take one day at a time and to build a good support system around you. Have a crisis plan availble in case something happens that you need a reminder.
If you have any questions for me feel free to ask me.
Always~Mel
Love ya 
